‘What is love? Oh baby don’t hurt me, don’t hurt me no more’.
I’m sure most, if not all, of you recognize these lyrics. Our lives really are just one long song, or many short ones…love songs at that.
I was lying awake in the wee hours, as I often am. That is when I get the best thoughts and am compelled to write them down, otherwise I would never get any sleep. These are the thoughts that came to me last night….an answered prayer actually.
The saying ‘It is better to have loved and lost then to never have loved at all’ is ringing true for me. To never have felt (and still feel) for someone who has been a very special light in my life…the type of soul connection some people only dream about…would have meant not knowing what it truly feels to be alive. Our hearts get ripped open wide when we surrender to love, but what is the alternative….to never have it opened? How dull, sad and depressing, really. Even after all the gut wrenching tears I have shed in an effort to release what cannot be, at least now, I do not regret anything. At this time I choose to see it as a motivator to move forward with my life, knowing that if anything is to come of it, it will, but staying in the same place and wallowing will not change a damn thing. And if it isn’t meant to be then I know something better will appear. As author Tosha Silver says ‘Let what wants to come, come. Let what wants to go, go. If it is mine it will stay. If not, whatever is better will replace it.’ ‘My life unfolds in Divine timing…my needs are always met.’
I know first and most importantly we need to love ourselves. Constant effort and awareness is essential for this. We all need to know we are perfectly imperfect just as we are. We need to embrace who we are as individuals and live in our truth, I feel, before we can truly embrace and accept love from others, be it friends, family or lovers. We are works in progress. I had this purse when I was younger…’please be patient with me, God isn’t finished with me yet’. We are never finished. ❤
I am beginning the second half of my life and I don’t plan on playing it safe anymore. I have done that until now, hiding behind safety and security; coming from a place of fear…not being my authentic self. For me it led to illness. It has been a long uphill battle to regain my health and now I am learning to appreciate roller coasters, as my life takes many turns. I will dance and live passionately, however that presents itself. I felt I needed to concentrate on soul growth, but I have had an epiphany writing this…all I have to do is LOVE…be in LOVE and make LOVE with my life and everything around me, and everything will fall into place. Let the journey begin 😀 ❤